Nothing changes until you stop running…

You can’t outrun yourself forever. Believe me, I tried.

Lately I’ve been reflecting on the importance of integration as a spiritual practitioner and teacher.

We live in a time when it’s so easy to become a spiritual butterfly — fluttering from one modality to the next: a ceremony here, a medicine there, a new coach or retreat, clutching at straws, hoping the next thing will fix us.

But what I’ve come to know, through yoga, through Druidry, through life itself, is that there is nothing to fix. There is only what we need to let go of — the layers that are not truly us. And that can be the hardest work of all, because our conditioning and tightly held beliefs cling so fiercely.

For me, the last few years have been a crash course in integration. Where I once chased, life asked me to sit. Where I wanted to expand, the universe appeared to take work away and gave me silence instead. At first I resisted, feeling I was losing everything: my business, my role, my identity as a teacher. My ego hated it.

But with time I can see it was blessed alchemy.

A chance to let all the experiences of the past 25+ years — the practices, the teachings, the unravelings — settle, compost, and transform into something deeper. Into strength. Into emotional maturity. Into the courage to let go.

Integration is not glamorous. It’s not always Instagram-worthy. It often looks like rest, stillness, silence, saying no when everyone else is saying yes. But it’s where the real magic happens.

So here’s my question for you (and for me too, always):

Are you honouring the integration process in your life — or are you being swept along by what everyone else is doing?