Sacred devotion, holy disruption

I want to share something personal with you.

A couple of years ago, during meditation, the Tantric Goddess, Kali came to me in three visions.

In the first, she burned my business. My logo held like a flag and thrown into a great fire. When it had burned completely, she danced in the ashes.

A month later, she placed it on a funeral pyre, lit it, and sent it down the river Ganga. A sacred ending. A rite of release.

In the third vision, we stood together on a mountain. She appeared as the crone goddess, Dhumavati. She placed the ashes into a small pouch and handed them to me, turned me into a crow, and told me to scatter them around the world.

For a long time, I couldn’t fully do what was asked.

I have let go of so much in the last year. My home, a long partnership, security, stability — all of it placed on the altar and offered.

But this business… I held onto.

And I understand now why.

My work was never really a business.

It was devotion. It was service.

It was how my love for the divine moved through me and into the world.

And when something is that sacred, releasing it can feel like releasing your faith itself.

What arrived for me very recently and perhaps stirred by my own devotion to Kali and spiritual practice, was a deep, embodied knowing.

Devotion does not belong to a form.

It does not live in a structure, a role, a title, or a way of earning. It lives in breath, presence, love, surrender, and truth.

My whole life is the practice.

Every relationship. Every ending. Every act of service. Every step into the unknown.

And so it feels safe now to offer even this to her, not because devotion ends, but because it no longer needs to be contained.

I don’t know what comes next.

I don’t know what shape my life will take.

But I feel more alive, more grounded, and more held in the Mystery than I ever did when everything looked secure.

Perhaps this is what Kali is always showing us, that the forms fall away, but what is real cannot be destroyed.

Thank you for walking this path with me, for practising together, and for holding space for a way of being that doesn’t always make sense to the world, but feels deeply true.

Let us see what will take form here in this community in the coming times with open hearts and minds.

Anything could happen and everything is possible.

With love and devotion,

Bodhini